In the beginning of 2009, I wrote some of my thoughts here.

In 2009, I (not in sequence of events):

1. learned that my physical limitations are being claustrophobic in deep water and being too high up in altitude.

2. stayed in a 5-star hotel for 6 consecutive nights and it feels really good. I learned to be a good guest by keeping the housekeeper in mind. Having done housekeeping for a paid job was enough for me to know the pain and gains of being one. Never did it ever crossed my sane mind that I would be able to stay in luxury, drowning in 5 pillows every night, especially in my 20s.

3. turned  25 without thinking much of it.

4. knew what it takes to climb a mountain and will try again when I am fully prepared physically and mentally.

5. realized that the work place is never a fair play. If diligence and integrity is what I can give, I shall give. With a clear conscience and commitment, I believe something good will come out of it.

6. unexpectedly had the chance to go the the US again after 3 years for 2 weeks on a short vacation and training. Had a chance to explore Denver and Boulder.

7. decided that it's time to get back to school but really getting in is another thing.

8. learned a fair amount of spanish.

9. ran another 10km ths year with a better pace than last year.

10. went for a body massage for the very first time.

11. missed a few flights home due to circumstances at work.

12. enjoyed the Christmas Concert by the Singapore Symphony Orchestra.

13. curled my hair for the very first time.

14. became more rigorous in learning at work.

For 2010, I look forward to:

1. pay of my debt and be a free woman.

2. do the necessary to get back to school.

3. to be consistent in my walk with Him.

4. help Lyin and Mr D prep their wedding.

5. learn to build up certain disciplines in life.

6. worry less.

7. write my heart out.

8. do less and do with less.

9. contemplating on closing this blog.

Within the Christian worldview, the cry of the heart for personal significance is a cry the Christian has both owned and contended with.  When a person answers the call of the Lord to "come and follow," she admits she has found in the person of Christ an answer to a cry she was incapable of answering personally.  When Jesus proclaimed, "Whoever loses his life for my sake will find it" he was stating something essential for the one searching for significance.  Knowing who we are and what we need is the starting point for what we will become.  The quest for personal significance commonly among us today reverses this, telling us that we must first become something in order to meet our own needs and make a name for ourselves. 

Christ is the one in whom our lives find their greatest significance because he is the
only one who accepts who we are and offers us what we need.  Is my search for significance really panning out?  Will writing a book or climbing the corporate ladder really hush the cry within me?  Attempts to define life's meaning apart from God will always be empty, for significance, like life, is not manmade. 

An excerpt from The Apologetic of Significance by Jill Carattini,  Ravi Zacharias International Ministries

sigh, just go to sleep you jet-lagged person!

and get ready for the rigorous plans of study from Wednesday onwards..

and get some jogging for 6th Dec..dad reminded me of that.

and lest be dissapointed that the flight tix are too expensive for the Raya Haji weekend to go home. Sigh.